Complete Blank
Posted @ 7:37 a.m. on 2008-01-30

There is so much to say. I just can’t put it into words. There are so many topics to talk about and yet I have drawn a complete blank.

There. How’s that? I think that is a pretty good drawing of a blank.

I think that I have brief spells of depression. Nikki has depression, and by the way she describes it, or doesn’t describe it, and by what I have seen of her and others when they are helplessly in the teeth of depression, I sometimes see the same things happening to me. I hadn’t noticed them before but as I look back through out my life all the signs are there. I don’t know, maybe I have subconsciously developed symptoms of a disease that isn’t there except for the desire to be able to understand and sympathize with the woman that I love. If that were the case, then I’d say that every woman should be jealous of Nikki for having such an amazing husband. Heh …. I am Hubbyman *shrugging smile*

Something more interesting is to follow.

It has now been just over two months of vacation from the Marine Corps and ATC. There is still money coming in even though I’m out of the Marines. My last official pay check was on the fifteenth of January and we have since received our income tax return, which I might add has set us up nicely for a down payment on a house.

Do I need to mention that everyone is invited to a house warming party when we finally buy a house? I didn’t think so. (This means you Smash!)

Throughout the past few months I have had the opportunity to think ….. a lot. ATC is the highest paid job in the US that doesn’t require a college education. There is just one problem; it doesn’t seem to challenge me as much as I would like it to. I mean, I have been a US Marine (not very easy) for five years, AND was damn good at it. I can’t think of anything much more challenging than that. Physically anyway.

Now Nikki is feeling the burden of having me around all the time. She has said before that my presence disrupts her daily routines. There are two ways to look at this. 1: She is so entranced with my Hubbman-ness that she gets all tingly inside and just WANTS ME!
2: I do things in a completely different way and it irritates her that she has to do them over again. 3: She gets defeated because when she does clean one area and move to another the area she just cleaned is trashed in minutes.

My vote ……. Number 1 *smiles*