What to do...
Posted @ 11:40 p.m. on 2006-09-02

Here's the situation. The family and I are planning to meet a friend in a few weeks. The opportunity to spend the weekend there in style presented itself. I was unsure about how we would be able to finance such an adventure but was positive that I could work things out.

It has been a few years since our family has been able to take a "Vacation". Sure we would every year go to Ohio for one either Christmas or Thanks Giving but staying at a relitives house is NOT a vacation in any sense of the word. So I jumped at the chance of a weekend stay in a nice hotel. I have since been having thoughts to the contrary. Talking it over with Nikki, after I made the reservations, it has become a topic of financial worry. I'm realy torn about what to do.

In one hand I have the knowledge that my family deserves a descent time away. In the other I have the worry of breaking the bank or causing undue stress. I know that I would have a good time simply because it is away from the riggors of every day life. I just wanted some time away with the family and now it has become a source of pain and pressure.

I don't want to cancel the reservations, but I more so don't want my family's weekend to be ruined because of stress and worry.

I feel so uncertain of myself to make the right decisions for the family. That is a real kick to the crotch. It sucks to have your confidence shatter in front of you.