The way the BAT rolls
Posted @ 9:55 p.m. on 2006-03-10
It is well known by now that Wifey and I are having a few issues. It's not like they haven't happened before. I love my wife and I never intend to hurt her. I just seem to be retarded and lick sidewalk chalk now and again.
Nikki and I have a painful past. Most of it is pain I caused. Typical male that wont be held down and thinks that every request made by a significant other is a demand to change. Typical male revolts and, in one way or another, gives the finger.
I had a problem with fitting in. Whatever the crowd did I did. I was weak and have been my entire life. People exploited that about me. The tough guys would always pick on the weaker guy. I hated that I couldn't do anything to stop them.
People will tell you. There are two reasons a person joins the USMC...
#1: They were picked on in school and want to learn how to kick ass.
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#2: They felt the need to do something with their lives.
For me it was a little of both so when I got in and learned how to kick ass, I wanted to fit in. To be on of "The guys". Makes sense right. Because of that I made some very STUPID choices, said some really STUPID things, and was lucky enough to keep my wife and child. I don't blame Nikki for being skeptical. It does get frustrating though. I have changed the way I am. I don't need to fit into a group
... except my family.
Now, with this whole Tammy thing. I did confront her and tell her off. She apologised and that's that. Except...I knew what she was capable off and half expected something to happen. Everything is not sunshine and rainbows between us. I know where she stands and she knows where I stand and that's if she starts dumb BS again I will have no problem setting her in her place again.
Why don't you just stop talking to her and acting friendly Kyle?
In my opinion it is not worth being angry over or staying angry for. She is not my friend. She is an acquaintance. She is Jason's wife whom I will have to talk to or see or hear about and I have dealt with enough anxiety when it comes to dick headed back stabbers that I am tired of worrying about whether or not someone is my friend. I will be nice until they piss me off. When they do, and they always do, I wont hesitate to shit on their face.
I guess one could say that I expect to have people try to intimidate me....but I'll be damned if I get intimidated. Sometimes people need to be put in their place. Tammy needed it, and I put her where she belonged. I'm not going to lose sleep over it because she doesnt matter to me.
Nikki, on the other hand, matters more to me than life. We just don't see eye to eye on some things. I love her very much. I will not choose anyone else but her. She is what I fight for. She is my reason for being a damn good Marine, not just a Marine, but a DAMN GOOD MARINE! Fuck with her and I'll stab you through the fucking heart with a rusty kay-bar and feed you intestines to you. After that I would hope you learned your lesson. No hard feelings but you asked for it. Like I said earlier...I wont hesitate to do it again if you make me.
That's the way the "BAT" rolls.