The night befor the night befor X-mas
Posted @ 10:13 a.m. on 2005-12-24

Yesterday was kind of wierd between me and the little lady. As expected, not much communication happened untill later in the evening. After the kids were asleep we sat and talked. She wonders if I know what I did wrong. Sure I do. I was doing something that would hurt her and instead of being forthrite and going to her I hid it from her in hopes that she wouldn't find out. Like I said.....I panicked. I don't remember saying that I was "trying to fix my sex life", but she does and I was in no position the recall. I remember a little, but not enough to mount a defence for saying that.
As a result my wife dosn't trust me...again. I have also resolved to restrict my internet actions to D-Land and Ebay. I visit those places more often than not anyway. Things will take a while to get better. My only goal is to recognise and thwart anything that I do that will or may be hurtful to my wife.

Last night was also a good time with the family. We sat down with hot cocoa and cookies and read Christmas stories. Stuff like that is what makes Christmas what it is for little kids. We sat and read and sang and ate and drank (hot cocoa) and had a good time. We would have done that tonight but I have to work till 11pm. It sucks but somebodys ot to do it.

Merry Christmas